Monday, November 26, 2007

goodbye, intelligent spies

it's after the fact, but turkey deserves a post. here are excerpts from moleskine #4.

4 october
right now i am in kaya koi, the "ghost town" created when a town of ethnic greeks relocated to greece in the 1920s. the turks in greece who were meant to replace them never came. then an earthquake left the town in bad shape, and it's been abandoned more or less ever since. today the stone walls are half crumbled, but it's easy to make out walls with windows, some plaster covered in faded blue paint... now trees wind up through cracked foundations into former kitchens. weeds carpet interiors yellow and brittle. dogs' barks at one end of the valley echo through roofless structures built into the hillside. after paying five lira for the privlege of wandering around i started straight up, losing the narrow cobbled path in favor of climbing around the walls. across the valley clouds had built up, a rumbling grey-blue haze. standing near the top of the hill, hearing nothing but far-off thunder and the prayer call, familiarly disonant. a little wind, gravel shifting under my sandals. derek left me then to head down, saying something about lightning. it was better to be alone anyway. what a place to feel completely alone.

9 october
sunday morning wasn't a total loss. we all woke up late, took a ferry to the asian side and went in search of istanbul's highest hill. at julian's urging we actually walked all the way to the top, which turned out to be lovely- a park with low tables under trees, cheap food and turkish people with kids spending a sunday afternoon. an ice cream vendor played tricks on anita, pretending to drop the cone, spinning around this taffy-like ice cream. it seems that all turkish sweets are gooey- this ice cream, turkish delight, the melted colored candy the guy wraps around the stick which immediately melts into a blob: all goo. anyway. views from the hill are stunning. a giant turkish flag rivals that of any US car dealer. i drink a cola turk before walking back down the hill. it's a slow day, perfectly paced. julian and i head across the bosphorus toward taskim square, walking past the stadium buzzing with a football match. a ramadan market is set up in the square, and families dress up in old fashioned turkish costumes for glamour shot-style photos for only five lira. i half-way seriously try to talk julian into it but he doesn't bite. as we're on our way out an old man tries to sell us a drink that he claims we will drink in heaven, with Allah and Mohamed and Jesus and everybody. it turns out to be a sort of vegetable broth. we stand there holding the little plastic cups while he learns that we are american and berates us on our country's actions (the "underground government's" actions, to be precise), which he calls "the shame of history." he is not a fan of britain either ("like snake poison and rat poison together.") in fact, he doesn't like turkey either. everyone is dishonest, he says. we aren't saying much--following his logic is a little complicated (he claims the jews were behind hitler), but his tone is never threatening. he speaks matter-of-factly, as though he's explaining weather patterns. so when we break away we say thanks and he shakes our hands. "goodbye, intelligent spies!"

after the sun sets during ramadan the plaza and park in front of the blue mosque fill up with vendors- jewelry, knick knacks, a fat kid selling a rabbit... cotton candy, corn on the cob, popcorn popping in a sifter over a gas stove... lights, kids, nighttime picnics, live music. we catch the end of the show and buy some roasted chestnuts. this is where oz, who apparently never leaves his side of istanbul, was shocked and dismissed the the whole lot as conservative when we walked through the crowds saturday. here all of the women cover their heads. but the scarves are colorful--all but the most conservative (head to toe in shapeless black) are stylish in fitted jackets, flared long skirts with boots or heels. different parts of town see more pants, more bare arms, more women without scarves. i've been wearing pants and a shirt around and for the most part have felt fine... in fact people have been nothing but nice. tonight i took off on my own and went to the asian side, where i decided on a whim to try on a pair of jeans. this is out of the tourist center and not so many people speak english. at one point i had four of the store staff gathered around trying to explain something (i'd asked the price). it was comical. but they were nice. it's my fault i don't speak turkish, anyway. i'd like to learn. i'd like to come back and live here. there's something about the place.

11 october
the nyc skyline never surfaced. we might have landed on a cloud... america saved me a storm. descent was more than a little rocky. but i made it in time for a two-hour delay. eleven hour flight and six-hour layover... it's four a.m. in my head. i bought a coffee as much to stay warm as to wake up. after weeks of turkish coffee or cappucinos, filter coffee is like dirty water. but the new york times was delicious.

Sunday, September 23, 2007

here goes:

alright, here is a shot at the last three weeks in three countries in twenty minutes:

1. barcelona- i made a decision on the bus to madrid to keep going, so i ended up here. zack took me for a drink with his ESL teacher-in-training friends... spent three hours in the cathedral-in-progress, la sagrada familia. too bizarrely cool to bother describing. go there. tried to get into a football match at the last minute and ended up watching it on tv at the home of a random italian instead. finally got my wallet stolen on the bus (spain had two close calls, but mary and i had been able to fight crime then). this whole time, stayed with the landlord of a friend of a friend, a sixth-storey flat with amazing views. at a dinner party held by the british girl flatmate, had chocolate cake that i would never have paid that much for. stayed up late and slept on the bus back to...

2. madrid- which is also a good city if you like looking at art. the only time my volunteer ID has gotten me anything, i was granted free entry into the great reina sofia modern art museum... spent another three hours in the prado. goya's black paintings are cool. i needed to spend time outside. andreas, the non-beer drinker from bavaria, accompanied me to the world famous flea market which in the end was full of crap. later i took dinner with stephanie, the swiss other roommate, and her brothers, who were far too good looking to be only 20. walking through the red light district we surfaced in a nice cool bar which i'd walked past earlier in the day when window shopping at expensive shoe stores stuck between tattoo parlors. four hours later, nearly missed my flight when my alarm failed to ring. vowed to be more responsible in rome.

3. rome- hostel A sucked, my two english boys pointed me to a more lively spot where i ended up meeting a fantastic kiwi (adrian) and a swedish londoner (annelie). the first night we threw pennies into the trevi fountain and went for the first pistachio gelato. the next morning we joined a tour for the colosseum but were disappointed to not receive matching headseats. it's not as big as the movie makes it out to be, but the place itself did not disappoint. every corner turned in rome leads to another gigantic impressive structure... i had to check out of my hostel at 10 the morning after a bar crawl and toured the vatican still buzzed. sistine chapel: okay, it was fine, but not life-changing. st. peter's cathedral left more of an impression on me... the last night there coincided with a giant outdoor festival, where i watched a quasi metal band roll down the street in a float with little men doing flips in this contraption on top, crossing paths with a group of drummers with flares, and a guy with a broom who kept jumping on statues.. at the end a string quartet and opera singer suspended from a crane in a sort of human mobile performed with the drummers and metal band. i can't even describe this. i took pictures.

4. florence- in a hostel which was once a convent and had retained the feeling, i met caitlin, my canadian counterpart. we happily spent over two hours in an outdoor market being indecisive and finally coming away with roughly three purchases each. we speak similarly, like the same things and even look a bit alike. clearly we got along. we spent two days in florence and sienna with selby. we took pictures of the beautiful streets, the bridges, the tuscan countryside; selby took pictures of himself. you should see his galleries on facebook. anyway. sienna: walled medieval village at the top of a hill. the highlight? saint catherine's head in a box. impossibly small... "was she a midget?"

5. cinque terre- five villages on the cliffs of the west coast of italy, south of genoa. steven (beligium) and i hiked for most of the day between four of the five, on a path carved into the side of a cliff in one spot and winding high through olive groves in another. it inspired awe. i said 'wow' every time i caught my breath and looked down. in the fourth village we swam in completely clear water in the marina, then i fell asleep on the rocks in the sun. i can't remember too many better days.

6. verona- another pretty spot. there was a bike race going on that finished in the main square so when you crossed the street you were requeseted to do it quickly. at "juliet's house" love poems/ graffiti cover the outside wall. i took a photo of some tourists on the balcony who did not resemble juliet at all, then moved on. here i stayed at a random hostel on the edge of town which turned out to not be a hostel at all, but rather university dorms rented out during the summer. i hung out with a med student from sierra leone and an economics major from ghana. nice change from aussies.

7. venice- when it rains in venice, you are literally surrounded by water. i watched a storm from the edge of piazzale san marco, the kind where the sun comes out when the sky is still dark. at one point it actually hailed. i liked the city, though the median age hovered around 65. through wth churches and museums we stayed outside all day walking up and down bridges. gondolas floating couples down the canals backed up and looked more like a ride at disney. video cameras rolled. i got over my issues with pigeons enough to feed them some seed in the square. felt scarecrow-like. my last day i spent with a french hippie (guilaume) and two argentinians (ivan and max). we opted for an all day ferry pass and rode out to an island. compared to venice it was deserted... just blocks of brightly colored houses... sitting next to the water and shared a picnic of beer and cookies. it was one of the best days i've spent.

8. athens- jesus, i am way past my 20 minute limit. i'm on mykonos now.. i'll save greece for later. i'm going to turkey next. hopefully i'll write more before i'm home: october 11.

Saturday, August 25, 2007

all things spanish, part one

from what i understand hemingway has covered this topic pretty thoroughly, but what the hell.

there are two main distinctions when buying tickets for a bullfight: whether you prefer the cheap seats in the sun, or the better, pricer shade tickets. the third distinction, i guess, is ringside, but that is so far out of my budget it doesn´t exist to me. of course i planned to purchase the "mas barato" possible, but when i finally got to the ticket stand the best i could do was 20 euro. at 8 o´clock i climbed to a top tier of the area and squeezed into a spot that was relatively close to my assigned number (painted in what had become the makeshift stairway). from here i could see the sun shining into the eyes of those i now considered suckers. actually, it was worth the extra 13 euro. the seat was well-located on the side of the ring where most of the action took place, and not so high that i could not check out the traditional tight pants of the bullfighters.

the night went more or less like this: a maddened, gigantic bull comes trotting into the arena. three assistant toreros, let´s call them, then take turns jumping out into the arena and baiting it with bright pink capes. every so often, one of these guys lures the bull into circling him a number of times. when this happens, the crowd yells "¡ole!" more often the bull will just chase the asst. matadore, who must posess a reasonable sense of timing to excel (or survive) in the job. the ring is equipped with narrow gates through which the assistants slide, ducking behind a thick wood panel the bull jams his horns into from the other side.


now the real torero rides into the ring on a horse (a short trumpet fanfare ensures that everyone will notice.) the bull takes notice fairly quickly, and as soon as he is through chasing a pink flag, takes the opportunity to go over and ram the side of the horse, which is covered with full armor. from his vantage point, the matador takes his first blow, getting the bull at the top of the neck until he yields. a few minutes later, the real torero leaves the arena (fanfare), and the assitants take center stage again, this time for spear throwing. each will take a turn running straight toward the bull, release two sharp sticks at just the right moment, and then get the hell out of there. one might miss, but usually these spears hit the same mark on the back of the neck. these sets of matching sticks dangle over the bull´s back for the remainder of the fight. there is already a lot of blood at this point.

cue the re-entry of the torero, sans horse, with flashy outfit. he will spend five minutes or so convincing the bull to circle him, waving his red cape, feet set apart, back arched, bending through precise, fluid motions. after each encounter he turns his back on the bull, dragging the cape on the ground and looking toward the audience (especially the expensive seats) for approval. we approve. it´s not hard to see some beauty in the movements, or appreciate the closeness of the bull´s horns to the body of a man protected only by what appears to be lycra... when the crowd is satisfied- or the bull seems to be wearing out from his injuries, i´m not sure which- the matador takes a thin, sharp sword from an assistant on the edge of the ring. he charges the bull at close range, springing over the horns to plant the sword deep between the bull´s shoulder blades. incensed and hurt the bull charges at anything moving, but within a minute or two, he is at the side of the ring, folding his legs under him and giving up. this is the bit that i found unsettling. because he isn´t just left to die. he´s poked and prodded by Red Cape and his Pink Cape posse even as blood is dripping from his mouth and gushing from his back. it smears on the wood paneling. when it´s determined to be over, the torero takes a short dagger and gives the bull one last stab. now he dies quickly, falls to his side. the fighters collect the dagger, sticks and sword from the animal´s back as a team of three horses is led into the ring. the bull is attached by the horns, and the horses are whipped to a run, dragging the dead bull in a semi-circle around the ring and out through a gate. a set of men dressed like Maytag repairmen are spread around the ring now, sweeping, and one chases after the bull, pretending to sweep away its trail. the Maytag men have made only limited progress when fanfare signals the arrival of the next bull. rewind and press play.



the only notable difference in the artful slaughter of six bulls is the bravado of the fighter. one is especially flashy. he is the only one to take a walk around the perimeter of the ring after his fight to collect flowers, toss back hats that float down from the bleachers. like all the toreros, he wears bright pink stockings to his knee. (in spite of this he is clearly popular with the ladies.) ...the tradition of the fight is striking, from the outfits to the audience participation- most were prepared with white kerchiefs to wave when the dead bull is pulled away. ...i can see why animal rights activists would cringe at the idea of these "fights," but it doesn´t seem like change is likely. except for the clicking of cameras, i could have been watching a fight from 100 years ago.

Saturday, August 11, 2007

nuns, tapas, and a giant metal bull

in the plaza where maria and i take our break between morning classes, a giant bull is parked behind a row of park benches. i say parked because it has wheels. four wheels, instead of feet, which support a wide angular frame of sheet metal. in fact, there is nothing particularly bull-like about him. only a pair of horns, and the fact that this is sevilla, would lead you to conclude that this hollow tank with antennaes is a work of public art, and a bull. this is one reason i love spain.

from this angle it looks like a bull, i guess


another is that my spanish teacher paints her toenails black. i see them as she darts back and forth between a regular whiteboard and an electronic one, and tries not to ruin the latter by writing on it with normal markers. i´m distracted by her eclectic fashion and bypassed by technology, but i still manage to pick up a lot of spanish in four hours a day. nine other students ring the table. a few come and go over the weekends, but for the last two weeks the core group is the same: a handful of brits, maria and another german, a filipina. a japanese guy spent only one week and joseph from israel left after two. i like the mix and am relieved to be the only american, even if the burden of explaining american customs rests solely on my shoulders. at my level, of course, we are talking "popular meals." this is not foreign policy.

i made the decision to come to spain the way i make most decisions: deliberate, delay making said decision, suddenly commit, see what happens. i came directly to sevilla from morocco, have stayed two weeks and have two more. it took about two days for me to establish a routine: class from 9 to 1, rush to do errands before stores close at 2. lunch and siesta, study, then go out in the town, and either a) do tapas/drink beer or b) go to sleep. spain is definitely not africa, but it also feels less than 100 percent european. take all the napping, for example. and the prayer call has only been replaced by church bells. i´m undecided over whether clanging is more agreeable than a loudspeaker-distorted Allahu Akbar.


the minaret/bell tower

in sevilla i live in a first-floor apartment on a small but busy street. peugeot drivers fight for tight parking spaces, and in the morning a tiny streetcleaner storms past my window. the room i get to call mine is easily the nicest place i´ve stayed in the last three years. when i showed up on the first day all i could do was nod and say "no, this is great" as i got the tour. i´ll spare details since deep down i know that having a bed and an antique dresser is not that big a deal. i´ll say only that a huge window reaches nearly to the top of the high ceiling.. and that above my bed there is a four by six foot painting of a rooster. (the owner of the apartment is recently divorced from an artist.) in the rest of the house, walls are hung from floor to ceiling with art featuring one prominent theme: naked women and dogs. not in separate works, but together. a few have rabbits, and a pottery period has been identified which highlights chickens. so in spite of this, or maybe because of this, i love the apartment. the owner took off for germany, so for the duration of my stay it´s only me, another student, and the women and dogs.

could an art major please interpret?

knowing that i´m here for awhile has made me take my time seeing the place. class takes up my morning hours, and during the siesta hours you may as well not even bother going outside. the two biggest tourist attractions--a cathedral and a palace--i have not gone into yet, though i walk past them at least a few times a week. by now i know some shortcuts. i have a route through the barrio santa cruz that takes me by the palace wall and to the river, for the days i make it up in time for a run. every corner i turn in the old city looks like something from a postcard: another line of three-storey buildings, vines and flowers falling from wrought-iron balconies. bars selling Cruzcampa beer, neighborhood grocery stores and, well, tourist shops with postcards. if i ever take more pictures, you would find them here.

i´ll see it all though. this week looks promising. class is out wednesday; it´s a holy day.

Sunday, August 5, 2007

western sahara recipe

this is as good a place as any for the info. mauritanians, knock yourselves out:

to go from nouadhibou to dakhla costs 11,000 um, but this bought a real seat in a mercedes. the cars leave around 1:30 pm from the "garage maroc." buy a spot the day before and show up at 12:30ish. the border crossing takes about 1.5 hours, but is professionally handled by moroccans. then it´s another 4.5 hours to dakhla. the taxi gets in around 9 pm, and you´ll have to take a petit taxi from the garage into town.

in dakhla, mohamed lemine (see entry below) has offered to put up any RIM volunteers in his small but free apartment. he´s a nice guy, so what the hell. i don´t want to put his details here, so email me if you´re making the trip. i didn´t stay long in agadir so i´m not quite sure what there is to do. there was a shopping area close to the water with cafes etc. agadir is nicer than any city i´ve seen in mauritania, so i´m sure there are ways to kill time.

dakhla to marrakech is an extremely long, boring route, so prepare yourself with the usual taxi brousse diversions. the entire road from nouadhibou up is paved, however, and there are rest stops where you can get a coffee and use a (turkish) toilet! not bad.

at noon a CTM bus leaves dakhla for agadir (340 dh, arrives 7 am) or marrakech (430? dh, arrives 12 or 1 pm the next day). a bus from marrakech to casa is 80 dh and from marrakech to tanger is 140 dh. i travelled by bus the whole way mainly because i had a huge backpack... i was able to check it at the station when i stayed over in marrakech, and pay only a bit to put it under the bus. the trains are nice and don´t cost much more, but your bags have to go overhead on a rack. unless you buy first class, you are also not guaranteed a seat. overnight trains mean sleeping on a vinyl bench seat. go for the bus.

in tanger i stayed at the hotel fuentas because i got tired of walking uphill, and the ones in the guidebook tend to be more expensive anyway. it´s close to the pension palace in the medina. it was 70 dh for a single with a hallway squat toilet and shared bath (but free hot water).

one last thing. if you´re crossing into spain, remember there is a two-hour time difference. don´t miss your bus like me.

i did this trip in about five days, spending a night in dakhla, a night on the bus, one in marrakech and one in tanger. it was kind of intense- i think this is almost the minimum in which it can be done. total spent on buses was about $85. and for anyone who´s wondering, i did the trip by myself as a 25-yr-old girl on the small side, and i was fine. i´m so hardcore.

...hope this helps, daryn.

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

finally, actually leaving

i left mauritania in a car with four guys named mohamed: mohamed abdullah, mohamed lemine, mohamed mahmoud, and mohamed ould mohamed. the driver (m. mahmoud) was pressed for time, and didn't wait to fill the car with two more. so after the police looked over the passports just outside of town, we wound through a section of dirt road at 10 miles per hour, past rusted car frames and two trucks heading south, full of fruit. we edged to the side to give them room to pass and i wondered if land mines weren't the reason we had to keep so strictly to this indirect path. who knows. nothing exploded. after ten minutes, the border zone opened into what is technically western sahara. given the moroccan flag and moroccan cops waiting to take my papers, however, it seemed pretty clear who ran things.

bargaining on a much harder trip i'd stuffed some provisions--a sweatshirt, water-- into my backpack. as it was, i settled in for my last, and easiest, taxi brouse ever. the two mohameds sharing the back seat with me had looked suspicious at first, but after they shared their cookies and milk with me i decided it must be some kind of vitamin deficiency that made them look crazy. poor guys. in the front seat, mohamed lemine asked me what my story was. he turned out to be a french professor in dakla, one of the two larger cities in western sahara. when we got into dakhla past nine, he invited me to spend the night with his family and i took him up on the offer. obviously that's something people don't do outside of this part of the world, but people don't really share milk and cookies with strangers, either. before i left the next morning i found out that he'd grown up between morocco and mauritania, but had lived in europe and the middle east for 20 years, and was writing a book. he encouraged me to write one, too. after refusing to let me pay for breakfast, he walked me to the bus station to make sure i got a ticket. i promised to email when i got into marrakech.


mohamed lemine


i was on the bus for twenty-five hours. i watched the desert smooth out from rocky plateau to dunes next to the ocean, but these changes took hours. mostly i watched the people on my bus. western saharans are basically mauritanians with a higher standard of living and autonomy problems. (an aside: dakhla is what would happen if mauritanians built sidewalks, obeyed traffic rules, picked up trash, and developed an efficient system of mass transit). everyone getting on my bus in dakhla spoke hassaniya and wore mulafas and kaftans or boubous. hennae-ed hands reached up to adjust the air conditioning vents. it was a little surreal. at night the temperature dropped, and i curled up in my seat. i'd spoken to the woman next to me a little, so we were on good terms. seeing that i was cold she unwrapped the end of her mulafa and put it over me, actually tucking it in under my feet. i'm not kidding. throughout the night she was vigilant about my keeping warm.

the view for most of the trip


at midnight the lights came on as we pulled into a gas station and people got out for coffee. it was cold and windy, so i kept to my seat. only one other guy stayed on the bus--a young guy sitting a couple of seats away, across the aisle. he wore a long white kaftan with a track jacket, the kind of traditional/western style lots of guys pull off. he grew a beard, and his hair was a little long and under a cap. i'd noticed him because between listening to music he'd been murmuring verses from a koran. it's a pretty normal thing to do here, but earlier it had struck me that if this scene had taken place on an american bus, everyone would have dove for the exits. young devout muslim guy murmuring the koran on a bus? that's just how it would have happened. so i was surprised when he hung around, and then when he offered me his jacket. i accepted; he pulled out some grapes and i got out water, which was the only thing i had to contribute. then the mulafa-ed seatmate showed up with coffee for me (she was really playing the part of a grandma), so we shared that, too. he spoke a little french, so the conversation was basic: where are you from, what do you do... badra has six brothers and three sisters. he's 23. his dad owns a paint store, and he just opened a bookstore this year. i told him my dad manages radio stations, but the concept was a little vague. he asked if i read, and if i had read anything about mohamed. now i knew why he was talking to me, but the conversion effort didn't bother me the way it sometimes has. maybe i realized it would be the last time, for a while, and i was wearing his jacket afterall. so I told him i didn't read arabic, but that i'd read about mohamed and islam in english books. he asked if i knew muslims (yes- everyone in mauritania falls into that category) and if i prayed with them (no). but i told him what i believe is true--that islam is a peaceful religion. i was keeping things simple for his french, and putting things plainly made me honest. i said that my family was catholic, and it would be very difficult for me to become muslim. i said that i am not religious--that i believe there is one god, but that i am not clear on the details. i said that i try to do good. he listened without moving to interrupt, and just kind of nodded when i finished. by now a couple of people had climbed the stairs back into the bus. he told me he'd practice his french, and actually said, "it's good to communicate." i couldn't agree more.

in the morning the bus was twisting through the atlas mountains, and everything about the sahara had disappeared sometime while i slept. in agadir my mulafa grandma got off, and when we finally got to marrakech i said bye to badra and gave him my email address. in marrakech it's easy to get lost. you can get lost in the souks, or just lost in the tourists. on the bus i'd been the token non-moroccan... here i was just another white chick looking at leather bags. anonymity begins. another full day later i arrived in tanger and checked into my $4 room with the shared bath, and the balcony window that offered a sliver view of the strait of gibraltar. the medina was packed with tourist shops and street food, but wasn't as shady as the morocco book made it out to be. i ate dinner in a square and let some random guys join me at my table. the first was australian, the others were american and british, and one portuguese. they'd just crossed over from spain and were worried about the food and water. they wished there was beer. they wouldn't have time to get any further into morocco, but they were glad they'd made it to africa.

see the water?